What have you been putting off? I’ve been meaning to re-write my About Me page for forever!

Procrastination: I’ll do it later.

But, I keep willing to do it later… I simply don’t know what to write about because I don’t know what this blog is really about. Sure, I started it as a girl with too many hobbies, but if I want to build a community of like-minded people, why would they come to me?

And if I try to find out what the blog is about, then that means that page will get re-written and the real work begins…

Maybe I don’t want to do the real work?

Why do we procrastinate?

My therapist always says that procrastination is about avoidance. We want to avoid doing that thing for… some reason.

For me, maybe I’m afraid of success because to succeed means to be seen and to be seen is to be judged and I don’t want to be judged incorrectly.

It’s fine that you don’t like me, but don’t like me for a reason I think is acceptable lol.

And because I can’t control that… that’s why I’m putting it off.

Granted — I don’t know what I’d even be offering to people, so how can I re-write a page when I don’t know what to put in it?

I’ve been trying to find that answer, believe me!

Astrology can’t save me, only I can save me

I’ve heard of people getting scammed by astrologers, psychics, and tarot readers, but I seem to only find good ones because they’ve told me to not come to them because I’m meant to figure this out on my own.

Fuuuuu — bro, please take my money and fix my problems.

But, alas. I am my own savior.

On New Years Eve, I saw Sai Avani who I found on TikTok. We talked about what I could expect in 2025 and about what Evan Nathaniel Grim from Inner Worlds Astrology said to expect when Saturn squared my nodes — it was a boring “your inner world will change” answer lol

Which, to be fair, now that things have played out already, my inner world has changed! Haha.

But, one thing Sai said when it comes to what I want to put out into the world regarding my public reputation, career, and gifts… that’s something only I can answer.

Later in the year, I booked a creative astrology reading with Liz Worth who specialized primarily in tarot but recently opened up her astrology practice.

The reading was designed to help artists find their voice and she sort of did? I’m meant to share deep psychological or even taboo insights on a public platform. But again, I still felt lost.

Why would people be coming to me exactly?

Liz mentioned that I could totally do astrology and tarot if I wanted to. Maybe document my journey?

I’m still lost af.

My last stitch effort is maybe booking a reading with Ziggy Astrology who I recently got an omakase PDF reading from. It was super insightful and she touched on aspects that others haven’t.

And I do plan on going back to her for more answers, but at this point, I don’t expect miracles.

How to Stop Procrastination

I know. This has been a long-winded journal, lol. But, hopefully you resonate with my thought process.

I think you should just not do it. Just don’t. You’re stressed out because you tell yourself that you should be doing that thing. So, just tell yourself you don’t have to.

Don’t clean your house. Don’t cook dinner. Don’t write your blog post. Don’t apply for that job.

Once you give yourself permission, that pressure goes away. And then maybe you can think to yourself, “why was I stressing myself out so much?”

When you reflect with a lack of judgment, you find out interesting things about yourself.

For me, I’ve been putting off writing my biography because I’m afraid that this blog will die like all my other endeavors to get out of this rat race.

So, to prevent myself from being disappointed, I just don’t do that thing.

And I don’t know — something about that radical acceptance of like, “you know what? fuck it. i’m just gonna not do anything because nothing ever works” makes me just do things almost as a joke or just because I like doing it.

Concluding How to Stop Procrastination

Just don’t do it. Be that sack of shit that doesn’t get anything done. When you’re bored enough, you’ll just do it because there is no point, but there’s also nothing to do 🤷🏻‍♀️

It’s worked for me.

While I still haven’t hit milestones that would make me think, “wow, I’m like actually amazing,” I finished this blog post!

Can’t fight me on that.

Right now, I have an idea to have plans for my Substack — I just don’t know what they are yet LOL. But, this is where you should catch me in the future for updates and… other stuff.